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sing gloria, shout to the lord
Jan. 2nd, 2003 07:20 am*huge sighs*
I don't know why I feel so miserable... and it's not really misery so much as resentment. Or melancholy. Or unhappiness. Or something. But just reading everyone's LJs? I realize that I have finally and for real this time cut myself off from just about everyone. And... I don't know. That bothers me on some level. I absolutely realize why I did it and what I had to do, but I still feel guilty and I still feel sort of like I'd want to be a part of it, despite the drama, despite everything.
I got 7 hours of sleep last night, almost.
I'm going to take my learner's permit test today. I've got the Driver's Manual open on my lap, to be read and memorized before we leave.
I don't know why I feel so miserable... and it's not really misery so much as resentment. Or melancholy. Or unhappiness. Or something. But just reading everyone's LJs? I realize that I have finally and for real this time cut myself off from just about everyone. And... I don't know. That bothers me on some level. I absolutely realize why I did it and what I had to do, but I still feel guilty and I still feel sort of like I'd want to be a part of it, despite the drama, despite everything.
I got 7 hours of sleep last night, almost.
I'm going to take my learner's permit test today. I've got the Driver's Manual open on my lap, to be read and memorized before we leave.
