caffeine diary

I kinda want to read Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell, but it gets all strange at the middle-end, and I kinda wanna read Cryptonomicon but I might have had enough of Stephenson just now. I really wanna read Anathem, but I don't own it. Neverwhere is too sad. I wish I could figure out a way to read Robin Hobb's Assassin trilogy without reading the Fitz bits (spoilers: they're first person in Fitz's pov), and I'd just read the second trilogy, except TOO SAD. I would read Circleverse, or Tortall, except I don't have all of either 'verse and the bits I have are kind of random. I have some miscellaneous cyberpunk that I've never read, but I've never read it so I don't know if it'll suck and I suspect it'll have not enough girls. I just reread all my Gail Carson Levine but I kind of want to read it again because after stealth-princess-story of Diamond Age, or, A Young Lady's Illustrated Primer I want proper princess story, but I JUST read them... The Parasol Protectorate is too silly for what I want (I know I know Ella Enchanted is not too silly but Parasol Protectorate is.)

I 'spose it could be Old Kingdom time, in preparation for Clariel coming out for realio truelio sometime this year‽

I have more books that I have room for. Why aren't any of them exactly what I wanna read?

(Also, I should not be reading any books right now, as it is almost an hour past my bedtime, but... I don't want to fall asleep without starting something new.)

Want things that are steampunkish or otherwise Regency/Georgian/Victorian aesthetic with girl heroes and lots of handwavy science/magical artifacts and very worldbuilding that don't get surreal halfway through that aren't too silly or too sad. And it's nice if they aren't entirely caught up in het romance. <-- is kind of asking for recs, but in a picky mood where nothing is exactly right except the imaginary version of the Primer that Nell has yet to create.

Things I want like, right now:

1. CJ-smut. That's fearfully in character and involves previously undiscovered characters who I find are perfect matches for her. (I have this... Thing. Where CJ should be having sex all the time, but there's really no one in the multiverse who's perfect for her to have sex with and no one who's as attractive as she is and it's this whole thing!)

2. Jed/Abbey CJ/Abbey Leo/Jed fic that... you know. Is that thing where they're married-and-bisexual and really love each other and they have loud screaming matches about the Thing where they can't satisfy each other totally and are fiercely in love but there's this Thing and... this feels in my head like exactly the kind of story that fandom would write but it needs to be absolutely perfectly in character except for, you know, the parts that are obviously not. I don't know how else to describe it!