twirl me deep

[wisdomeagle]

I feel like dancing a dervish. I'm not even sure what a dervish is, I just know it's a Sufi prayer dance of some sort and involves whirling around and around.

I want to run around in the rain and just let it overwhelm me. Around and around in circles, in wild, whirling, swirling twists and turns. I've got "The End" by The Doors, from the soundtrack to Apocalypse Now, stuck in my head, which is really ironic, since it's a song Pome* gave me.

This is the end, Beautiful friend
This is the end, My only friend, the end
Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end
No safety or surprise, the end
I'll never look into your eyes...again
Can you picture what will be, So limitless and free
Desperately in need...of some...stranger's hand
In a...desperate land
...
This is the end, Beautiful friend
This is the end, My only friend, the end
It hurts to set you free
But you'll never follow me
The end of laughter and soft lies
The end of nights we tried to die
This is the end


There's this white bowl. And it's beautiful, pure white, completely spotless, and there was all this muck and grime, all this mud, clouding it, and finally it got dumped out, and then the remainder of the mud was washed out with the clear water of tears, and the tears were washed out with ocean water, and the salt from the sea was washed out with communion wine, and that was washed out with toothpaste, until finally, finally, the bowl was completely and utterly empty. Nothing left inside whatsoever except clean, fresh air, and a soft, soft memory.

Welcome to my life.

Comments

[greyink.livejournal.com]

here's my question.
how does it work that we're both simply miserable?

[greyink.livejournal.com]

by the way:
a dervish is a dancer in certain muslim sects that perform twirling and whirling circle dances in honor of their god. it's also used to describe someone that possesses lots of frenzied energy.



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