caffeine diary

four things still make a post, right?

Wed, 05 Dec 2018 21:41:12 GMT

a) wow who knew that this icon would be appropriate ever again (besides people with good pattern recognition skills)? Or, I am glad that this is one of my 9000 icons that DW randomly selected to keep active when paid time ran out however long ago that was.

2) as tumblr crashes and burns there are a bunch of folks on my dash saying "ahahah DW what is that who's ever heard of that, I want my shitposts and not that boring longform text-based stuff" and I feel weirdly defensive despite having not used DW actively in... a super long time, but like dude, that's my home y'all are talking shit about.

iii) then again when I come on this site and read the thing I am stubbornly gonna call my flist, sorry, it's full of y'all being Adults with Adult responsibilities and children and illness and marriage and I feel... unfinished? prolly mostly nostalgic for the LJ/DW years of my life, age 16-21 or so, and those days when I was in fandom. I've been pointlessly nostalgic about this for years without actually returning to fandom although I know it's still here, but I'm not still here.

δ) innnn happier news: I wrote 100,000 words this November for NaNo, I am on pace to read 200 books this year (hmu privately for a link to my GR account, as it's connected to my wallet name -- I don't really post reviews, but if you're curious you can see what I'm reading -- mostly YA and MG, to no one's surprise), and I am on a 484 day streak on Duolingo (French).

...I almost instinctively flocked this but there is absolutely nothing personally identifiable in it so.

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ugh lj I am basically ready to quit you

Thu, 11 Sep 2014 21:35:10 GMT

I have 2 LJs, wisdomeagle and a private one. The one I'm usually logged into is displaying correctly in scheme=dystopia, which is how I have viewed LJ since 2002 and how I would like to view LJ for the rest of my life.

The other will only show in the fugly redesigned scheme, even if I append ?usescheme=lynx or =dystopia (?usescheme=lynx works fine if I am logged in on the correctly functioning account). Angry comments on the official LJ comm suggest that the intention is to eliminate the historical schemes after the new one is out of beta? There doesn't seem to be any workaround that I can find.

I am about ready to cry.

At least the private journal is still displaying correctly for now. Maybe this is the incentive I need to migrate that over here too.

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[bpal] Pentitence

Fri, 14 Mar 2014 09:25:55 GMT

I may have purchased 6 months of paid time on dreamwidth so I could upload a perfume icon and start using a perfume tag.

Under the cut, mostly for my records, all the perfumes I have tried to date

( pretties! )

My favorite by far of all the things I've smelled is Penitence by BPAL. In some ways because I am a person of simple tastes. Incense is one of my favorite scents because it makes me think of church, and especially of anointing oils. Penitence is described as "a blend of pure, pious frankincense and graceful myrrh," and it does what it says on the tin.

Most of the oils I've tried smell sweet to me. Good sweet, mostly. Some are foody sweet, some are just weird-sweet, and I think my nose interprets "musk" as sweetness, since Neutral is a "pure skin musk" and it smells incredibly and weirdly sweet to me.

Penitence is a little sweet and a lot spicy. It's intense, and distinct, and it was immediately a comfort smell for me. I have taken to wearing it most nights falling asleep -- which is probably the right time for it, since it doesn't last particularly long on my skin (sadness!) but while it lasts it's incredibly joyful and pleasing and comforting and delicious (though not in a foody way -- I don't want to eat my skin; I just want to inhale it.

My first BPAL order was 6 imps (sample vials), including this one, and this is the one I upgraded to a bottle in my second order.

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[poll] social media

Fri, 28 Sep 2012 20:11:01 GMT

View Poll: social media

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mourning//accepting what is

Fri, 28 Sep 2012 18:17:16 GMT

Every few days I see a post about the way that LJ and DW are fallow these days. There are still people hanging out here, of course, and I've still got people to play with, but way fewer than back in 2005, which was, for me, the heyday of my fannishness.

I haven't really moved on fannishly. I don't own a tv and I don't have internet in my apartment, so I haven't watched... I think the most current tv I've seen is one episode of Fringe and one of Community when I stayed with sk8eeyore and her husband two years ago.

I almost never see movies in the theatre anyhow, and if I've seen anything since the year of nu!Trek and HP 6, I don't remember it.

I don't read comics.

Heck, I loved Hunger Games but haven't read later books in the series.

I'm not a fan the way I was in 2005. And that's okay. Has to be, because it is.

Tumblr is an epic timesuck and I'm using it mostly to follow social justice things and look for pretties, and I know that once I'm back at work I'll have to not-tumblr at all. Which is fine.

I think, honestly, at this stage in my life I'm most engaged on Facebook. And that's weird to me. Facebook is for ~~real life~~ meatspace, and it's weird to feel like I have meat friends who are interested in what I am, but I'm having conversations on FB more regularly than I am in any other social medium.

And that just is. Moving on.

I've still got LJ/DW in priority position among my tabs -- I still read them every day -- I'm still debating doing Yuletide this year. And I just pulled up femslash12 to take another look to see if maybe...

And the other thing is, I haven't made new friends on any social media for a long time. I think about my closest friends, the people I consider the sibs-of-my-heart, and I've known them all for years, going on a decade. I'm not meeting new people, and that's okay. I don't feel like I have the energy to find new people and do the kind of engaging with them that's required for friendship.

And that's okay.

(I'm having ~feelings~ about all sorts of things, one of which is, I think the internets is my best bet for finding a personfriend*, but I definitely don't have the energy to seek one out, and the people I already know, while you're all lovely, are basically ruled out on account of we've known each other for at least 3 years and if it hasn't happened yet I don't think it's gonna.)

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in a gen way I swear

Mon, 28 May 2012 22:46:31 GMT

View Poll: silly poll to celebrate paid time

Crossposted here on LJ.

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