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Dec. 12th, 2008 03:36 pm
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
1. I had a HORRIBLE NIGHTMARE that the [livejournal.com profile] mmm_smut mods deleted all the kinkmeme fic that didn't have a plot.

...

needless to say, that was quite a bit of it.

2. I'm going on retreat tonight, so I'll be afk and probably papergleee!

3. Happy birthday [livejournal.com profile] venusinrapture. ilu.

I think that's it.
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
Last night I dreamt that Ann explained on her blog that Ducky was gay. Let's see if I can reconstruct the story...

Apparently (per my dream) Ann had just plotted out a scene where Kristy and Mary Anne have a fight because they both want to date Logan [um]. And she heard that [made up percentage] of fights between boys or men are over women they both are into romantically/sexually, and that she'd never write such a scene because a) she doesn't write from male points of view and b) all the boys she writes are like, geekchic (actually not true because dude, Logan? Anyhow.) This segued into how one of the male points of view she Peter Lerangis wrote was gay. See if you can guess which one!

Okay, I'm kind of loving this sequence of dreams. For my next trick, can I dream CJ/Tara?
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
I dreamed that the girlfriend and I were finally catching up on Stargate: SG-1 and we started right in the middle of S... 9? 10? Or something.

Anyhow, it opened with MShanks and BBrowder (okay, okay, Daniel and Cameron, but srsly my brain was parsing it as the actors) in the middle of having sex. Like, really, really screen-meltingly hot naked-and-groping (but without any actual Bits because then Skiffy couldn't air it, yeah?) sex.

Like, I would be catching up on SG-1 NOW if this were true.

Sigh.

(Then the dream digressed into this whole... Baby-Sitters Club [there was CUDDLING WITH MARY ANNE!]/kidnapped-by-my-grandparents tropical vacation with fantasy elements [ghost puppies?] and Claudia designing outfits and like, painting her jeans black [and Claudia was FRELLING GORGEOUS; her hair is like a dream come true] and I don't even know.]

[dream]

Aug. 8th, 2008 02:41 pm
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
I dreamed I had a crush on Anthony Stewart Head.

But Ari, you say, that's not a dream, that's trufax.

Oh yes. But it is sadly not trufax that ASH is my high school math teacher, and never in my life have I devoted like 2.5 hours to make sure that my parking space in the hs parking lot was right next to HIS omg he's so amazingly hot. He was like EVEN HOTTER THAN IRL in my dream because he was sort of all weathered and grey and not retouched and omgggggg. There might have been hugging involved.

Oh man, it was such a nice dream.

/shallow

dreamverse

Aug. 18th, 2007 09:54 am
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
I dreamt that I was Harry Potter. Only, not a black-haired teenage boy, etc., still me, only filling in my universe the same function Harry fills in his. It involved something about time-travel and needing to go back in time and discovering I needed to kill my younger self, because the evil wasn't external, it was me. (Or possibly, as the dream morphed, the kidlet.)

Then I dreamed that various characters had switched powers -- only it was more an AU where the powers were switched from birth, since (as I explained to my girlfriend in the dream) straight powerswitch, you still have however many years of character development with the canonical powers, but the alwayalready powerswitch, well, Hank McCoy's reaction to growing blue fur is going to be different from, say, William the Bloody's.

Xander got Warren Worthington's power. (YES I DREAMED WINGFIC.) Spike was running for President, which makes me suspect he got Sam Seaborn's power.

random

Jun. 23rd, 2007 09:00 am
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
I dreamt that [livejournal.com profile] alixtii and I were playing Truth or Dare.

Then, I dreamt about Dom/Billy. I have no idea where that came from. Only know I really want to reread all the Monaboyd on which I gorged way back when.

[dream]

Sep. 23rd, 2006 09:15 am
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
I dreamt there were more CA Diaries books.

In which it was canonically established that Ducky was gay.

(Because, really, what other plot points are there?)
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
I dreamt I had someone draw me Mrs. Bush/Mrs. Rumsfeld art (non-graphic, manga style) as part of Fireworks.

You only wish your brain functioned like mine. (Mrs. Rumsfeld's name was Elaine in my dream.)

Off to work. :)
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
I dreamt a polyjuiced Kristy Thomas had to pretend to be president Bartlet while he recovered from some sort of injury. Hijinks ensued.

This raises a fundamental question in my mind.

WHY has no one written this fic??

daily

Jan. 30th, 2006 12:43 pm
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
+writing [livejournal.com profile] femslash_minis fic. It has plot atmosphere!
+The talk only in userpics meme is teh_awesome. [livejournal.com profile] inlovewithnight and I wrote a wee little Kaylee/Gunn story of awesomeness.
+I love coffee!
+I should work on graduate school apps.
+My hands are cold.
+I miss my girlfriend.
+I dreamt [livejournal.com profile] alixtii and I were co-writing a fic where Willow and Dawn got married.

I think that's everything of import!
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
a! I am feeling much better thank you very kindly flist! I slept pretty much all day yesterday and all last night and woke up at ten feeling groggy but no longer headachy and nauseated and generally gross. I have a stuffy nose and can't taste anything, but I'm okay for work tonight and that's still several hours away (as I keep reminding myself nervously). Thanks so much for your good wishes, flist! Keep the chicken soup coming. :)

2! Ficathon stuff is past due and I am so uninspired. Woe! I am determined to get everything done as soon as possible, though! *promises, promises*

c! My [livejournal.com profile] femslash_santa gift was posted! It's Stories and Myths, by [livejournal.com profile] glimmergirl. Fred/Kaylee, just for meeeee! *delighted*

4! In conclusion: I am feeling much better now! Though still uninspired to write! But better! And abusing the exclamation point like whoa! Because I am feeling better!

e! It's worth mentioning that after two days off, I'm on coffee again, to ward of another Headache of Doom like the one that ate my brain yesterday.

6! Not done yet! Things what I have watched in the past few days:
+Lots of 3 Stooges (cos, new year! Is required!)
+The last bit of the Pilot of Farscape, which was on teevee. So good! With the John! And the John omg! And Teeg! *pets prototypical!Braca* And Aeryn!
+The first half of "When She Was Bad"! It's so shiny and such! Mmmm, W/X!
+A few more episodes of Sports Night. Jeremy/Natalie with a possible side of Dana is so my canon OTP! Yay!
+Lilly/Veronica spanking. Woefully, this happened only in my head, in a very strange dream I had last night! O_o

Now, 'tis back to writing. *falls over*
wisdomeagle: (Mary Anne/Dawn)
Work starts at two today. I'm not totally dreading it.

I will. Write. Something. Today. *crosses heart*

Last night I had an odd BSC dream. I stole the plot from Farscape's "Kansas" -- we were in an AU and needed to fix it by finding the most drastic thing that was wrong and setting it right. It turned out to be that Sharon was married to someone other than Richard, so we (no idea who "we" are here) had to fix it and set her up with Richard.

Err kay yeah. Doing a thorough catch-up on flist then going to write!

There are still some pairings to be guessed here including just about all the AtS ones.
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though I don't know why I'm posting it here, since everyone who reads harry potter is either a) asleep at last!, b) actually actively reading Harry Potter or c) avoiding their flist like the plague. On the other hand! It was a whacked out dream liek whoa (still no HBP spoilers, as the book isn't even in our house yet!:
teh dream )

I'm WICKED excited about HBP! *squeeee!*
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
Just came down from a spastically large caffeine high. Or rather, am still on the caffeine, just not the high. I drank a cup of coffee to keep me awake during class, and while that worked, the end result is me spazzing and awake but not cogent in any way. I kind of want to go see philosophy professor number 3 (neither insane nor annoying), but that would mean having something rational to say other than "Hi, I'm panicking. Help me please?"
some more real life babble, with some fannish stuff tacked on )
Discussion at dinner of tacking on 'ships at the very end of series and pissing off evvvveryone. Concluded that they must tack on Sam/Hammond at the end of 'Gate and piss off everyone except me. (Because, in [livejournal.com profile] cheese_munkey's words, I'm "a crackwhore." :p ) I still like my idea!

Wheeeee!
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onemonthonemonthonemonthonemonthonemonth!!!!

Dreamt I got email from Sean's mommy. It was rather philosophical. Weird. Set in my old neighborhood in New Jersey. Very strange.

Sleep schedule has been turned on its head. Very sad.

onemonthonemonthonemonthonemonth!

day

Dec. 18th, 2003 12:07 pm
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
Nightmare: my mother is getting remarried. I don't find out that my parents are divorcing until the day before the wedding. My mother wants me to read a prayer at the wedding. I don't smile. My dad is about to cry. Why is he there? Why is she doing this? Somehow, Cynthia is involved. I don't understand that, either. Is she officiating at the ceremony? Or did she somehow give my mom the impression that it was okay to do this? [livejournal.com profile] gvambat also showed up, like she does. Like she belongs in my life and isn't important for the plot but is just there. I don't remember all the details. I remember fear.

the Sentinel is my new crack. Gah. I'm not ashamed to admit I'm only in it for the slash, though I'm trying to follow the plot, if there is one, beyond "get Jim and Blair naked and shagging as soon as possible." And there's het. Luckily, an almost year in the Stargate fandom has taught me to deny canon het with a right good will.

Feel sort of disconnected. Read about forty pages of Hawaii last night but probably won't finish. Actually, I kind of feel like reading LotR, given all the hype surrounding this... whatever it was. Some media tie-in. Kind of fuzzy on the details. Legolas dies. (Couldn't help myself, sorry.) Anyhow, don't have the books here, of course, nor do I have Sherlock Holmes, nor any other good source material. I wrote a draft of one fic for [livejournal.com profile] stargate_santa but don't really think one seven page fic is much of a Christmas present. Will try to write more.

It's almost Christmas. Somehow, I still can't believe this. Christmas. Like, December 25. Like, carols and bells and tinsel and presents and baby Jesuses in cr[alt 138]ches. In, what, a week? Less than a week? Something like that? Weirdness.

Someone will be done with finals today! Someone will be done with finals today! Hey... someone... do you want to beta this fic for me? I'm in need of reassurance about the entire middle four pages or so.

SG-1 musicvids are like... yay. Very yay. I can download vids all day and then watch them and bitch about what I don't like about them.

I will try to accomplish something today.
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
I dreamed about QAF. Brian/Justin? A character named Derek who was a bastard? And Willow and Tara were there. Now I know that's not right. And for the record, no, I've never actually seen QAF. Obviously.

I emptied out my Juno webmail account, finally, so we have 2 megabytes with which to play. (Darn you, [livejournal.com profile] sage_theory, now I can't type that without thinking of TP.)

I got a note from the registrar's office explaining the whole full-time student thing to the Federal Court at Boston.

Finally watching the Dark Angel vids I found yesterday. All three of them. Max/Logan so pretty. Ignoring the music, which is blah, just watching the 'ship. SQUEE! Must upload Max/Logan at some point.

I'm leaving in an hour.

I've been thinking about identity a lot lately. Particularly, I've been thinking about how much my identity has changed since I came here. All my identity markers are just gone. Bookworm. Religion. Adult obsession. I'm not that girl anymore.

I don't even know who I am. I am Max sitting on the top of the Space Needle. *minimizes vid, as she thinks she might be getting spoiled* Erm, yeah. Since I think I'd probably remember every single fucking time they kissed, I'm guessing I'm getting spoiled. *watches a different vid* A bit fanatical about avoiding spoilers? Me?

Anyhow. I have virtually no idea who I am. It's all gone away, it's all changed. I'm all changed, and I hate change. And I hate not feeling comfortable in my own skin. And She used to say that I was so calm and serene. She kissed the top of my head and said "Thank you," and "You're so calm. How do you do it?" I was fourteen.

I'm eighteen and have panic attacks on a daily basis over school and over... everything.

I've been thinking about missing people. About Jeane and about the ministerpeople. I've been thinking about how my life might be different if Jeane hadn't died. Because Jeane died the week before I went to Prospective Students' Overnight at PEG. And if she hadn't died, maybe I'd have gone to PEG a year earlier. Or maybe not at all.

And if that had happened, the world would be different. The world would be so utterly different that I couldn't even identify it. Everything important happened after Jeane died. We found Sean's mommy, and then I joined N9, and if I'd gone to PEG a year earlier, that never would have happened, and I never would have met Sumita. And if it hadn't been for N9, I wouldn't have needed a new messageboard, so I never would have joined QT. And then I never would have gotten a LiveJournal or met half of you people.

And if I'd gone to PEG a year early, I probably wouldn't have met Pome* and possibly not Gvambat, either, and maybe Gvambat and I would never have lived together. And if I'd never broken up with Pome*, which wouldn't have happened if I'd never gone out with her, then I wouldn't have gone insane and needed Stargate, and then there wouldn't have been the goodness that emerged because of that.

You know?

It would all be different.

And I have been thinking about the ministerpeople. It's not that I miss them (though I do.) It's... I'll never forgive them. They never gave me the chance to forgive them, because they simply vanished. They were there in May, and four months later they were gone, and I never said goodbye. Will that thought haunt me for the rest of my life? Will I ever be able to think about them without feeling that something is unfinished? That something precious is gone and I should have gotten some closure but I didn't? And I love them. And I hate them. And I need them. And I hate knowing that.

They're going to hire a new minister at St. John's while I'm away. I'm crossing my toes. I'm hoping for young and queer and pretty and ministerpersonish. I think that's probably a bit much to ask, though.

Barring that, I hope she's nice. I hope she makes me remember why it is that I used to love going to church.

I think I'm ashamed to admit to myself that I no longer wake up for church every week because I truly want to go. I miss Old First and I miss the ministerpeople and I miss feeling holy and I miss church making my week feel complete and centered and like there was a purpose to all of it.

I wish I felt like it were really Christmas. I wish I were going to see you this Christmas.

I'm just in a needy mood right now.

Leaving in half an hour for Christmas break.
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
I dreamt my little sister was played by Michael Shanks.

::BOGGLE!::
wisdomeagle: Original Cindy and Max from Dark Angel getting in each other's personal space (Default)
I had strange dreams last night. They involved the ministerpeople, I think... I think they involved me being sad that they were leaving, but I got to say goodbye. Which is more than I can say for real life. Damn, I miss them so much.

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