caffeine diary

Title: The World Set to Rights
Fandom: Emily of New Moon series
Featured Pairing: Emily Byrd Starr/Perry Miller
Rating: Teen
Disclaimer: No longer in copyright.
Notes: Written for mardia in yuletide 2011. Originally posted here.
Summary: Perry Miller and Emily Byrd Starr, née Douglas Starr, do what they do best (use words, words, words, to avoid an uncomfortable truth.)
Additional Ao3 tags: Trans Character, Engagement, Family
Wordcount: 1840

( She had been named Douglas, for her father )

Pick up the nearest book to you. Turn to page 45. The first sentence describes your sex life in 2012. Via vassilissa

"The problem of the authority of Scripture is part of the wider crisis of authority in modern Western culture."

This is why I will never, ever get laid, isn't it?

(The romance novel is probably equidistant and vaguely more satisfying:

"We came down here to take out a boat, but I have always had an aversion to being a wallflower."

Although oddly specific.)

Dear Yuletide author,

[Fandoms are Jossverse RPF, Savage Love RPF, Baby-Sitters Club - Ann M Martin, and Princess Diaries - Meg Cabot. The rest is behind a cut because it is so ridiculously long I don't even.]
( this is the cut tag )

In conclusion, THANK YOU for writing a story for me. I know I will love it.

~Ari

Yuletide Madness has begun! Huzzah! I already had uploaded 2 stories. Inorite? I haven't published any fanfic in two years, since Yuletide 2009. But this Yuletide will change all that. I will ctrl-f gleefully though the list and somehow find the time to write and the internets access to upload.

And Starbucks opens tomorrow at 8:30. I... will probably be here (as that's where I am now), because presents can, occasionally, get me out of bed.

Will gleee! sometime in the next couple of hours, before Starbucks closes, then head home to write and make myself lovely(ier than usual) for Christmas Eve service. :)

Up to "The Eye" in my SGA rewatch. It was lovely. So lovely!

if this doesn't work

-- it will

-- I know, but if it doesn't

-- it will

-- in the unlikely event that it doesn't --

-- Rodney!

Oh, TP ♥

oh dear.

Skimming Yuletide letters and the "I want my men to be MEN! MANLY MEN! Not teenage girls!" makes me want to go, "I want my teenage girls to be GIRLS! Teenage girls! Not manly men." But I would be 100% okay with trans fic for my teenage girls, so it would be a lie. (Well, sort of. I don't think Tina Hakim Baba will ever be a ~manly man~, which doesn't mean Tina will never be a man. Maybe I will say it: TEENAGE GIRLS! I want my teenage girls to be girly girls. Even if they are boys.)

(Of course, I am also okay with my men acting like teenage girls, see also Joss Whedon's pink backpack.)

I did end up requesting BSC, Princess Diaries, Jossverse PRF, and Savage Love RPF.

I made 21 offers, 5 limited (3 to offer only particular pairings, 1 because I'm not caught up on canon, and 1 because I have a dislike for certain characters), 16 any. I aimed for a conservative offer, and for me, this is it. Surprise: I really, really like princesses, girls, and fiction written for people under the age of 20.

I left what I've written of my Dear Author letter at the office, so right now it's just blank, but I'll work on updating it with All The Things over the weekend (and decide whether it's really worth going into work over the weekend just to email myself All The Thoughts on Tech-Savvy At-Risk Youth...)

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Hilarious Cow Clicker update: I posted the link to the NPR story to Facebook, and a few minutes later Dad emailed me a link to the story saying he thought I'd be interested in it. Then a few minutes after that he apologized, saying he'd forgotten that he'd gotten the link from me in the first place. :) He was right, I was interested!

So I baked -- banana bread and corn muffins -- and watched SGA (S1 through "Childhood's End").

The thing about SGA is, I think I will never think of it as my show, in that tolerant, adoring, "oh show, how so ridiculous" way that I feel, e.g., about BtVS or SG-1. Gvambat never really got into SGA, which started airing at a time when my fannish experience was very much a shared-with-girlfriend experience, and I have still not seen past the middle of S2 (for some reason my rewatches always cease right around "The Eye," perhaps because I know that nothing can possibly be more amazing).

So, as you know, Amy-and-or-Bob*, my SGA OTP is McKay/Weir. I am sometimes a little afraid when rewatching that I'll discover there was less of the delicious McKay/Weir stuff that I love than I remembered, but so far this has not turned out to be the case. (Of course, a lot of what this pairing consists of in my head is "oh, Rodney's totally getting spanked tonight," so.) So that's delightful, getting to bounce up and down as I rediscover how much I love them.


*you probably know what "As you know, Bob" means (and if you don't, have an innocent link to an explanation! [warning: tv tropes. I lied about the innocent]). "As you know, Amy" is the female equivalent. I suppose "As you know, Pat," is the gender-neutral equivalent?

The other delightful thing is this thing we call communion. I had a prof in grad school who explained the communion that we experience as Christians as being kind of like this: I see a thing in a store that I have no interest in personally, but I know that my bff would love it, so I see it through her eyes and love it because of the communion we share.

That's what fandom is like for me. It's watching SGA and part of me hates Sparky, because it plays with a lot of tropes that squick me, but the biggest part of me is experiencing with mylittleredgirl et al and while I don't actually ship Sheppard/Weir and never will I... see it and am happy because of the communion that I share with people who do. Or noticing the Teyla/Bates and thinking of scrollgirl, and it's more than thinking, "Oh, Scroll would (does) like this," it's thinking, "I like this because of the relationships I share with people who like this."

Communion, it's pretty awesome, guys.

(The distance to McKay/Sheppard is a bit further. I'm not sure I even remember why so bitter and resentful about it; I've grown more fannishly tolerant in the many intervening years, but the bitterness is still there. Fandom is not a zero-sum game, but sometimes it feels like that, I guess.)

My thread is here.

The internet is a funny place where if you need validation and love and affirmation, you just ask.

I figured out how, of course, the Much Ado ado can help me finish the Jossverse RPF high school AU that stalled out because I couldn't decide what play they were going to put on.

Good ideas make me tingly. *crosses toes that I'll actually be able to write words*